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Shadow Leaders Letter to Aunty K....
"Am I destined to have one f/buddy after another?"
Hi Aunty K,
I’m currently single, 23 and I’m an average girl. I’ve had my heart broken by a guy in the past. We started as fuck buddies, but I fell in love with him and I was nothing to him. This went on for years as I hoped one day he’d actually realise that I meant it when I told him I loved him and that someday he’d fall in love with me. Boys have come and gone, but he was my first love. Since then, he has moved to another city and is living with another girl, but still sees me once or twice a year if he’s in town. I go to him for comfort and reassurance. Plus I’m insecure about my looks and used to think I wouldn’t get another guy.
There IS one guy who is a friend of a friend. I’ve kissed him twice and spent the night with him on one of the occasions. He doesn’t live in the same city as me. He only comes home every now and again and I make sure to go out when he is around. There’s a definite attraction, but nothing seems to happen unless he is drunk and I make the first move. I really, really like this guy: everything about him. He’s single and playing the field. He seems to want a girlfriend, but doesn’t have one. I don’t know what to do. Should I keep going with the flow to see what happens?
Shadow Leader
Former F/Buddy
Dear Shadow,
There are two lessons (maybe more) worth noting from the first boy: (i) just because you love someone doesn’t mean the laws of nature will instantly make sure he will love you back and (ii) going with the flow and accepting a sexual relationship with no boundaries is a sweet deal for any guy who’s not ready to commit and, even if he is, he’ll soon be looking beyond the no-strings sexual encounters he has currently. In other words, you have boundary issues: you need to draw in the goalposts and be philosophical about Boy Number One and, quite possibly, Boy Number Two.
By sleeping with a guy and accepting a casual quasi-relationship/friendship, you are saying, “I am worth X.” He might say, “I’m willing to sleep with a girl who’s worth X, but will only date a girl who’s worth X + Y.” (Or something to that effect.) Stop thinking of yourself as the side salad, or as something to pick at, rather than the main course.
If you don’t clearly mark out your boundaries, then they will continue to be crossed in ways that are not fulfilling or nourishing to you. Some folk can do f/buddy relationships … to a point. You, from your email, want more. Rather than starting with the sex and moving backwards to more socialising/dating, it’s easier to start from a dinner/dating, kissing/flirting beginning and THEN allow the relationship to grow towards the bedroom, with the STATED UNDERSTANDING that you want a loving/fun/monogamous relationship. You are worth it. It doesn’t make you needy. It makes you strong and independent. You have a right to these needs. You just need to give a voice to them.