I must admit, I thought my aching heart would have been soothed to an extent by now byt, alas, it looks like the agony is going to go for a while although obviously I hope I'm wrong.
With an increasingly heavy heart I find myself opposing Celtic (at around 1/9) this evening at home to Hamilton. The current odds - generally around 1/11 the home win - have me wondering if the bookies are paying any attention at all to what's going on up here. Those odds would be expected if we were in any sort of form but we are a pathetic wussy bunch right now, disintegrating in front of the fans' TV screens.
I have no idea how much truth there is in the rumours but they are alarming: indiscipline in Dubai, bullying behind the scenes, players queuing to ask away, etc. Meantime, the fans' perception is that Dermot Desmond is fiddling like Nero at a bonfire ceilidh.
I don't believe that for a minute. I was told a month that two very big (for Celtic) names had been approached. I was told last week that this will be Lennon's last game in charge and that a new boss will be unveiled on Friday (I know the name but will keep it for now in case it doesn't happen), that Lennon's severance package and the new backroom staff were holding up negotiations. I've also since been told cold water has been poured on the move.
Things are clearly dire at the club.
But, we should still be good enough to see off a plucky Hamilton yet we aren't. Other sides recently have showed 'lesser' teams how to beat us. Park a bus at the back, press tightly further up from the start and we'll give up after half an hour, presenting them with set-piece chances in the final hour. Kick everything in sight. The ref will do next to nothing.
There's no way of knowing which of our players are turning up ready for the fight. Jeremie Frimpong looks like being granted his request to leave (to Leverkusen for £11.5m) so probably won't feature here. We have no other reliable right backs. Young Karamoko Dembele has reportedly been trying to negotiate his exit. He wouldn't be a loss as he has failed to build on his promise of his early teenage years. It looks like he just can't handle the physical side of the game up here and referees are in no rush to protect Celtic players in their determination to 'stop the ten' (which is now a bit of a laugh since we're doing a fine job of it by ourselves).
So, I do hope I'm wrong and that we show some real form tonight but I've been hoping that for long enough and it hasn't been happening.
Black days all round and the gloom doesn't look like lifting tonight.
Hope I'm wrong.